So iIhave this not so new obsession iIguess- death..
Doesn't perturb me.. It's a new beginning in my head.. That's what excites me
It's like you spend hours and hours on a piece of art work.. Then ihave this moment when I overdo it and then it cannot be salvaged... It's been a waste of time almost
So yeah.. I want to feel as a child.. I've grown too much to go back to experience the butterflies in the stomach.. For me it was always like a cold fire at the bottom of my stomach.. I want to go back to hyperventilating over seeing someone.. I want to feel puppy love.. It hurts that I've grown too much.. It hurts that I'm no one's priority.. I am on my own... I only think someone worse than me is he who didn't even have the opportunity to feel whatever iIfelt and constantly reminisce about...
I want to give my life for something that'll last forever..
I will give love.. To those who've shunned me.. Oh you don't even know you are so dear..
I'm finally back to me... I never realized iwas actually beautiful.. To go ahead and still wish to connect with those who have scarred me... I can now understand how special I am.. Cos I've been surrounded with so much negativity.. I'm proud ican still hold the torch light high up.. Whether or not others acknowledge.. I know IL be there for you all..
It's just my heart.. But God's grace
