my views on lgbt

Well .. This is a super controversial topic esp this day and age in India.. I don't know I used to support it .. But lately I've jus been questioning everything .. So here goes .. I hope not to offend anybody .. I'm not even sure about what I'm going to type out now .. But as my blog is well read .. Only by me (smiles sadly) .. I think I can quietly put it out there. Now .. As I've heard the lgbt community feel "natural" towards their respective sexual preferences - to which I can agree. However, I've heard at least on tv that men rape and defend themselves saying .. They can't help it ..PLEASE CORRECT ME IF IM WRONG .. I take that as feeling natural ? To go ahead with their need to fulfill their pleasures. Hear me out .. Yes, when we talk about a rape- it happens forcefully, against another person's consent .. And therefore is punishable by the law. Now take the sex say a gay man has with another gay man .. Both feel natural about it ? They both are happy? .. Just because it makes them happy doesn't mean its necessarily correct right ? Almost like indulging yourself in chocolates ! ..well even that is harmful .. Unlike the lgbt community .. They dont exactly cause anyone any harm .. However they are bending the rules of love .. Which can deeply impact our future generations and meaning of survival. I bet I've infuriated you by now .. That's not my idea .. Like I Said I've been questioning everything .. The last thing I want to be called is narrow minded .. Having made that statement .. I read somewhere- God is the same through the ages and so are his rules .. It's nice to live in a frame .. You'll avoid unnecessary confusions .. I learnt that a little late .. However lesson well learnt. So now will God tell us his exact stance on this subject so we can finally lay this to rest .. Shyt .. I'm an acid aunty ..

shortchanged

I gave you my halo naively .. And you lost it I gave you my wings willfully.. And you soared away out of sight I gave you my heart with hope.. And I guess it fell out of yours I gave you my body .. And now its a cadaver.. To be examined by the whole world .. I kind of have my mind .. Or so id like to think .. Or wait ..

afterlife thoughts

I was just pondering .. Maybe one day when I'm dead .. If anyone did really miss me they would somehow land up on my blog page .. Sheesh I better straighten up my acts ! Lol .. Yeah I remember even when my dad passed .. I tried to call his office no. Hoping to hear him on the answering machine. I somehow don't think the answerin machine ever came to India .. Oh wait how'd I know .. For IV never really worked ! Dang can't help but think iv done nothing great to be remembered by .. At least in the Harry Potter series the wizards could conserve their dearest memories in their tears .. And actually share it with someone else .. Through some kind of magical vessel I believe ! .. Now we laugh .. Or fantasize .. I'm dead sure the future would be amused by what once amused us (then old generation) Okay I have this theory .. If earth can be haunted by evil souls .. I bet there'd be angels too .. You gotta be selfless enough not to want to rest in peace .. But fight to help people .. I'm gonna be that .. Just as soon as I get to see my father .. Wow .. This post has freaky written all over it ...!! I cannot believe my entire life is gonna be documented on the internet by me .. I just read a hilarious post today sayin .. Ours is a generation who would rather spend Tim deleting their history .. Rather than making history... So true .. I'm not sure why do our iniquities overwhelm us to such extents that we choose to step out of our skin and act the way we do .. Fear is what makes the world go round ... Fear is a good thing and a bad thing .. If we weren't scared for our tomorrow we wudnt have worked .. Thereby not evolving at all ..in India at least it happened by the trickle down effect.. Communication is always the key to avoid fear becoming the bad thing ... But its so easy to pull out of relationships .. Out of sheer ignorance and negligence .. It's like a vicious circle .. When we are kids .. The smallest things mean the world .. However as you keep tasting the true meaning of life .. You'll know everything is small .. But many times we treat our relationships the same .. Whatever happened to the promise I made to myself to be happy .. I think that was the toughest challenge .. Amidst the heartaches .. Anywho .. I don't really know why I sound alot like atlas !!! Haha I'm not atlas .. Why is hard to remind myself that .. Okay Il leave off here .. To whoever cares enough to read ..

time is passing me by

Here I lie on my bed .. As time passes me by .. I ponder the insults my heart had to take .. And wonder if they were insults at all .. Or just an advice uncalled for ofcourse .. I remember someone telling me "get a life" ... And all I was consumed in was the pain those words caused cos it was questioning my being .. My set goals .. I guess one must never set a person down to be one's goal .... Unless it is yourself ... It's just a heartache otherwise .. Eat. Pray and love speaks of balance in one's life ... About doing it all .. Ugh .. I dunno .. What am I sayin .. Just had to put there .. So yeah .. I guess unless you have respect for urself .. I guess that comes from the type of contribution you put in to society .. Only then will other people too acknowledge you and your being. A mother can't just be a mother ... I don't think that's enough to earn her respect ... Well at least I very naively used to think the same about my mother .. I didn't know she wasn't allowed to work after marriage .. I have experienced complete shutdown from the outside world ... So I know how deeply it can change you ... I literally forgot words ... Like simple words .. Just because I was hardly communicating .. I always do this .. I start with something .. And land up somewhere else all together ...!! So yeah .. Get a life just meant .. Do something with your life .. Something solid.. Make an identity .. Don't let yourself pass as a shadow of someone else's identity .. Either this or it really was an insult !! :p :p Btw lookin at my prev. Posts.. It kinna amazes me the way I used to write .. Now I feel all of that was surreal ... I'm not sure it even happened .. I used to be so fluid in thoughts .. Now I jus feel so abrupt ... Like a shattered mirror's surface .. I used to check this stupid blog .. N watch d no. Of views go higher till I realized it was only me ... Ahh tho is all for some days like this dat I'd like to look back and amuse myself abt my transition in life ... I'm not sure for d better or for the worse .. Nothing seems clear ..

tailor cut hearts

if only there was a formula
if only there was set right
if only i never knew the many shades of white
if only my heart was tailor cut

No i may not be the one you were expecting me to be. T

tailor cut hearts

..and you thought u had a tailor cut heart?

but then the unknown sweeps u off your feet .
before you know it your heart speaks its first words
how incredible that nuance..
to blow specks of life into what you held up your sleeve
your mind races and dodges to find the ultimate..
the perfect words and with all one's creativity string them together..
one by one- oh so very carefully..
the world is exaggerated
the happiness is exaggerated more than ever
you dun care about understanding why!
what used to be 'a flower' is now the subject of your sonnet!
your heart is set aflight .. like a feather in the beagentle breeze
so beautiful.. so unpredictable.. but at the mercy of the breeze

the heart isnt in its element ..but fondly experiences thrills
till its shredded back into its original machine
by its too late .. till u realise-
the beautiful life will haunt you all your remaining day

and u wished your broken soul