Life updates - Water Baptism

Its been really long since I filled this space. I feel very disconnected with the world not being on FB and Instagram and what else !! Few friends who cared enough to sustain our relationships are in touch through phone. Even though physically I am alone, I have all reasons to believe otherwise. I got baptized on 14th October 2017. This is when I openly declared to leave my past life and start afresh IN CHRIST. My world has changed. My thoughts have changed. My personal standards and morale meter are sky rocketing. Within the next few days I could issues which would take me 3-4days to resolve would resolve in half a day. Its not me though ... Cos you know my capacity 3-4days . however The Holy spirit is most obviously at work. The issues being either temptationsor or dealing with pain. I keep singing to myself Nehemiah 8:10 The joy of The Lord is my strength. Its not easier to move from a " Luke warm" Christian to a "warmer christian" In fact its much tougher however I'm so well equipped with God and The Holy Spirit ... I can't complain too long ... My goal is to stop complaining completely. Im moving from giving importance to the physical to spiritual realm ...

Love unlimited

So we all go through disappointments in life. Many times from our relationships. Many times from our expectations. Maybe if we just let lose and start being open to the fact that there is more than one kind of love. Other than the "prince-princess" kind of love. Why do we want to set a limit .. when God says love your neighbours as yourself. In other words love everyone ... We are the ones who judge and decide whom we would like to dedicate our efforts, time and care to .. however who is to say you will be rewarded by reciprocating all of it back. The world is full of hurt people. And unreasonable too. Why put all your eggs in one basket ? .. there are several kids out there longing to be loved and cared for ... Why waste your love? .. thats my new approach. I never wanted too much .. just like everyone else to be accepted, and to be loved. Nobody on this planet wants anything more than that .. money, can be earned.. love and people are hard to find. So I was told to use my time fruitfully .. what would define "fruitfully" to someone else might not be the same definition as mine. For me it means finding kids who would like company, care, maybe a sister .. I can't say I don't have sisters of my own .. I do .. my cousins .. are the sweetest. However I never got to live alongside any of them to really experience sisterhood. I appreciate my friends, they've always been nice to me.Asking close ones to spend time with you may not always work out. So find different people .. who says you need to shove your love down people's throats ? .. they don't want it... Then find someone else who needs love .. I know plenty of kids these days are abandoned.. do good for them .. or old people in old age homes. This way your love is wasted .. and you are still spreading joy. We are so stuck up about people not loving us back .. the way they should .. chuck it .. there's a whole world of unloved uncared for kids and elderly people. You'll surely make a difference in their lives. Find your own path of love. Don't limit love... It was never meant to be :)

Confessions

So I went to the "encounter with God" weekend at Church .. it was crazy .. in the best way.Here they prayed over as many issues as they could and released me from my bondages .. now I can freely say people who had hurt me .. can't hurt me anymore. Those experience s are mere memories that mean nothing any more. I don't feel the sting of those times anymore.. it's beautiful to be set free of invisible burdens and ties. There is such a thing as a soul tie. Whomever youve been a relationship with .. if they aren't around anymore and you still have those hurtful memories .. God can take away that pain and release you from the burden. I even formally said goodbye to an ex .. I'm glad that tie doesn't exist anymore.Theres no happiness in lies. God is awesome really is .. I bet he would be very disappointed to read many of my blogs especially cos theyr so sad .. but I'm going to leave it here ... To show everyone(that reads) there is hope. So yes please take encouragement from a person who has been distraught quite a bit.. So now .. I'm a little mellow and a little blue as I might have to live my life on my own .. I'm not super dramatic as I am used to being .. I'm taking everything in my stride. God is gonna help me through .. I'm pretty sure no one else is more reliable than him. It's okay .. things happen.. but I really need to know what direction to go in .. Speaking of which .. I think everyone needs to know which direction to go in .. I hear so many cases of paedophilia, promiscuous sexual acts .. it's all media driven because of hypersexuality showed everywhere. Sex has become very important.Because that's how the world wants you to think.It drives me nuts .. we are becoming so insensitive to feelings esp love .. we are becoming like dogs, just doing it. Why is love not advocated anymore, why is love rundant ? Why are romantic stories deemed fantasies? .. Just because media wants you to believe so. Don't be fooled. Love exists. My husband had mentioned to me - there was a reason why in the yesteryears parents put restrictions on children and were very severe about dating(if any of them allowed it at all) Every time you fall in love and your heart breaks your faith in "love" diminishes .. and so you too start satisfying yourself with the next best and easy thing sex. The more relationships you've had the more you end up disliking the concept of love. This wasn't the case in the yesteryears. The first time people had sex was after their marriage .. it's the first time they wanted to fall in love .. it's the first relationship that means the most .. simply cos the feeling of newness cannot be ever repeated. That's why our parents stuck together more than us . For our generation sex is easy to get .. you don't even need to be in a relationship for it .. it's robotic .. clinical .. it's empty. I urge you to understand .. sex cannot fulfill you spiritually.. love will .. you are a spiritual being. And as scary as it is, it is dangerous to have sex with people .. How ? You build soul ties with the people you connect with sexually. You do not want that unless you really love the person .. as your spirit entwines with the other .. that's even how a third spirit (a baby) is formed. Life is important . I thought differently before .. but any act that can produce a new life should be treated with respect and love. Otherwise we are aping animals .. I know most people would hate what I'm saying .. I did too .. not only you. But because that is the truth you gotta open your eyes and change. Stop paedophilia. Stop promiscuity. When you find love you won't need the worldly desires.