time is passing me by

Here I lie on my bed .. As time passes me by .. I ponder the insults my heart had to take .. And wonder if they were insults at all .. Or just an advice uncalled for ofcourse .. I remember someone telling me "get a life" ... And all I was consumed in was the pain those words caused cos it was questioning my being .. My set goals .. I guess one must never set a person down to be one's goal .... Unless it is yourself ... It's just a heartache otherwise .. Eat. Pray and love speaks of balance in one's life ... About doing it all .. Ugh .. I dunno .. What am I sayin .. Just had to put there .. So yeah .. I guess unless you have respect for urself .. I guess that comes from the type of contribution you put in to society .. Only then will other people too acknowledge you and your being. A mother can't just be a mother ... I don't think that's enough to earn her respect ... Well at least I very naively used to think the same about my mother .. I didn't know she wasn't allowed to work after marriage .. I have experienced complete shutdown from the outside world ... So I know how deeply it can change you ... I literally forgot words ... Like simple words .. Just because I was hardly communicating .. I always do this .. I start with something .. And land up somewhere else all together ...!! So yeah .. Get a life just meant .. Do something with your life .. Something solid.. Make an identity .. Don't let yourself pass as a shadow of someone else's identity .. Either this or it really was an insult !! :p :p Btw lookin at my prev. Posts.. It kinna amazes me the way I used to write .. Now I feel all of that was surreal ... I'm not sure it even happened .. I used to be so fluid in thoughts .. Now I jus feel so abrupt ... Like a shattered mirror's surface .. I used to check this stupid blog .. N watch d no. Of views go higher till I realized it was only me ... Ahh tho is all for some days like this dat I'd like to look back and amuse myself abt my transition in life ... I'm not sure for d better or for the worse .. Nothing seems clear ..