afterlife thoughts

I was just pondering .. Maybe one day when I'm dead .. If anyone did really miss me they would somehow land up on my blog page .. Sheesh I better straighten up my acts ! Lol .. Yeah I remember even when my dad passed .. I tried to call his office no. Hoping to hear him on the answering machine. I somehow don't think the answerin machine ever came to India .. Oh wait how'd I know .. For IV never really worked ! Dang can't help but think iv done nothing great to be remembered by .. At least in the Harry Potter series the wizards could conserve their dearest memories in their tears .. And actually share it with someone else .. Through some kind of magical vessel I believe ! .. Now we laugh .. Or fantasize .. I'm dead sure the future would be amused by what once amused us (then old generation) Okay I have this theory .. If earth can be haunted by evil souls .. I bet there'd be angels too .. You gotta be selfless enough not to want to rest in peace .. But fight to help people .. I'm gonna be that .. Just as soon as I get to see my father .. Wow .. This post has freaky written all over it ...!! I cannot believe my entire life is gonna be documented on the internet by me .. I just read a hilarious post today sayin .. Ours is a generation who would rather spend Tim deleting their history .. Rather than making history... So true .. I'm not sure why do our iniquities overwhelm us to such extents that we choose to step out of our skin and act the way we do .. Fear is what makes the world go round ... Fear is a good thing and a bad thing .. If we weren't scared for our tomorrow we wudnt have worked .. Thereby not evolving at all ..in India at least it happened by the trickle down effect.. Communication is always the key to avoid fear becoming the bad thing ... But its so easy to pull out of relationships .. Out of sheer ignorance and negligence .. It's like a vicious circle .. When we are kids .. The smallest things mean the world .. However as you keep tasting the true meaning of life .. You'll know everything is small .. But many times we treat our relationships the same .. Whatever happened to the promise I made to myself to be happy .. I think that was the toughest challenge .. Amidst the heartaches .. Anywho .. I don't really know why I sound alot like atlas !!! Haha I'm not atlas .. Why is hard to remind myself that .. Okay Il leave off here .. To whoever cares enough to read ..