Aiden the light of my life

My Ray is the happiest thing I have ... he has no strings ... its all so simple with him. I have always loved simplicity and depth. Thats who you are Ray .... or at least I hope you grow up to become .. a wise and non pompus person. The sweetest people are the hardest to hate .. and thats you .. not that I tried hating you .. just a tip for life. For the record ... you are all I look up to .. you tickle my heart .. you bring out light out of my soul .. a soul thats battered and sizzling out .. Never forget your life is a gift .. you couldve easily been a housefly crushed by the next swap of a newspaper .. but instead you were chosen to be Aiden Ray Samuel. Your heart is the purest Ive ever known .. always caring .. always supporting .. sometimes I wish you were older and I could really look to you for emotional support .. cos of you being the awesomest of them all .. then I recall .. you and I cannot be friends .. you are my son .. and I must appear strong for you .. even though I fail miserably at it. Its just that in a long long time Ive finally found someone who will hear me ... without having any of their works to serve as an excuse not to ... but then again you are 3. You too may change .. but in your core you wont .you are me.. always out there trying to help and console .. you be strong Ray ... you are NEVER alone .. Jesus is there. Some say hes imaginary .. but I believe in love .. and God is love. He has placed your mother in that particular place .. at that particular time so she could be cared for by your grandparents who gave her everything she could ask for. Although sometimes your grandmother would be insensitive .. its okay ... i learned to live with it .. so yeah ... theworld will entice you but I know its not easy to capture our hearts .. cos we want want simplicity ... you cant buy that. Life is never about one moment .. its about the whole run ... you have been such a blessing... continue to be righteous .. and funny and cute ... you may find yourself alone .. like I am ... but I always remind myself I have you. Remind yourself about me when you have your doubts... believe me I struggled hard to be this way. Its beautiful when you are different .. in the best ways ever... no matter they see it or not .. cos who you need to impress and honour in the end is God.